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Entry Date: 2005-12-29 14:39:20
Subject: Thursday December 29, 2005

As we visit with family and friends over the holidays it is certainly very real that we are leaving our country and will not be with those that we know and love so much.  That makes me very sad, even though I am at peace and full of joy in what God has for us. So much to look forward to.   People act surprised that we cry when we say goodbye, as though we didn't expect it to hurt. We always knew that this would be hard, very hard, no real way to completely prepare for goodbyes.  So as we say goodbye, prepare to pack up our home here, and purchase those necessities that I so often take for granted here, I am reminded by my Heavenly Father to keep my eyes on Him and His purposes, to love with my whole heart- even when it brings incredible pain, and to be transparent so that people can see Him in our actions.   People also ask, "So are you excited?"  I would ask the same thing!  My answer, "Now Iam to SCARED!"  I hope that is ok to admit!  I do have faith in God, but I would be lying if I didn't admit that daily I think of things that scare me or might bring hardship or pain for me and Mark or moreso regarding my babies.   Almost every fear that I confess to God He brings me something as a reminder of His love for me and how He takes care of His children.  Some fears He shows me how it can work out, or what can be done.  Some I know will be true, and that I will have to run into His arms for protection and comfort.   Sometimes He asks me, "Why do you not have that fear here in Euless?"  I am then reminded that so many times I live without turning to Him- ignorantly content to handle matters myself!  Oh I know the road ahead will strengthen my dependance on Him.   So as we get ready to head back home to pack up what we have here, and say goodbye to our dear family and friends, I need Him.  I am singing the song, "I need thee, Lord I need thee.  Every hour I need thee."  
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re: Thursday December 29, 2005  by Sherry Barnes on Friday December 30, 2005

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