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Entered By: Paula
Entry Date: 2009-01-07 21:46:24
Subject: Gerardo
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Yesterday after school I was coming down the hallway to give Senor Carlitos a shower and I heard Gerardo softly crying in his bed.  When I got to him he expressed his total exhaustion of dealing with his pain, and how he wanted to just give up.  We have been seeing signs of his giving up the past few days, the main one being not eating.  I sat and cried and prayed with him.  I told him how we loved him and how he couldn't give up.  I believe he has so much life ahead of him, so much to keep going for.  Not a day goes by that I don't ask God to take his suffering away, however that might be.   I left the room to cut up a carrot for him and bring his next round of meds.  When I stepped out I lost it.  Out of his sight I fell apart.  A dear lady that works for us, Melody, came and comforted me and then went in to pray for Gerardo.  When I went into the room she was there with her 2 children that come to work with her.  They were all three praying for him.  Later  that afternoon he was able to eat more and get up for a bit.  He laughed a bit and I was so thankful.   She will never know what it meant to me that she immediatly went in and did what was needed. Before Christmas he developed an infection from the port sight, a staph type infection inside of his body.  The drs. have been on holiday or vacation since Christmas and so there has been no one to deal with his problem.  He has still had dialysis, but they just give him acetaminiphen for the infection and pain.  The pain is all over his body, I think it must feel like a horrible case of the flu all over.  He has no appetite, so I have to cajole and force feed him.  He has also gotten the idea that if he gains weight, he will have a harder time in dialysis.  On top of the pain, someone at the hospital told him that if he didn't memorize his medicines, he would be put in the hospital.  The poor guy takes over 20 a day.   This evening he came home from dialysis with horrible pain in his legs.  Again we sat together on his bed, crying and praying.  Again he shared his frustration with living like this.   I type this up to share his struggle and to ask you for your faithful, vigilant prayer for our child.  When we pray, I do not feel hopeless, but I do feel powerless.  It is the most agonizing thing, watching a child suffer and lose his will to live.   He needs a miracle, he needs better care, he needs to hear a word from the Father.   I ask you to pray, Paula
Replies to this message
re: Gerardo  by Margie Spenla on Sunday January 11, 2009
re: Gerardo  by Kelly Bamford on Sunday January 11, 2009
re: Gerardo  by Jan Archer on Saturday January 10, 2009
re: Gerardo  by Kala R on Saturday January 10, 2009
re: Gerardo  by Lora Walker on Friday January 09, 2009
     re: Gerardo  by Paula on Saturday January 10, 2009
re: Gerardo  by Brenda Smith on Thursday January 08, 2009
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re: Gerardo  by Adam Stockin on Wednesday January 07, 2009
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