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Entered By: Paula
Entry Date: 2012-11-01 13:23:59
Subject: Last update sent out/October 4th
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I want to thank all of you who have been praying for me regarding staph infection. I appreciate your prayers, your encouraging words sent, and your love. I immediately felt your love, His love, and His healing presence surrounding me. I believe He is cleansing my body from this infection as well as my heart.
Thank you. I am so thankful to say that at the same time I sent out that request John was translating for a doctor from the US. The dr. recommended a different medicine that we were able to get here in Siguatepeque. So, I am now finishing my 3rd round of antibiotics and have no staph sores! Yeah God!

Everything is moving along here at Hope Farm. Another Hallelujah....we are still praising God for no seizures (Carlitos). John was able to work with two different medical teams for two weeks. He was thrilled. The team performed eye surgeries, and made eyeballs for people. Isn't that amazing? He was honored to be able to serve, help out mechanically, translate, watch, and learn new words. Faith is thrilled (those who know her wonder how "thrilled" looks on her) to be helping a young lady teaching ballet at a local school. Reynaldo, Arnold, and Cindy are settling into their new school year. My anticipation for the new building and the things we want to do in it is building. That is cool. My prayers for helpers, those who want to sow into the neighborhood and lives here are increasing. Do you have something you want to come share? I really do see our little casita having people stay there, people from the US and other places, people that will come and pour out what God has given them.

I think that I am learning to praise Him in a new way, with a new song, with new words, with new hope. Let me back up. This summer, while in the US with Hannah and Faith we were thrilled to be able to go to church with Hannah at her Austin church, Hope in the City. That particular Sunday was a healing prayer service; a quiet time of worship, reflection, and asking. As usual, I was overwhelmed in His presence and overjoyed with the "new songs" I was hearing. We went down to pray for Gerardo (this is before he went to Jesus). I remember having peace that Gerardo was in God's care, that it was out of my hands, and that I would just stand and believe for his complete healing. Returning to our chairs in the sanctuary, I heard a most anointed song, almost haunting. It was "10,000 Reasons" by Matt Redman. I treasured that one in my heart, I held on to it for dear life, and still do. Time goes on, you know the story; our Gerardo went to His Saviour, we mourn, we believe, we scream, we learn a little sign language, we cry, we eat, we rejoice, we do school, we live. Every day I wake up, wonder if I did all I could do, wonder if my love was given freely enough, big enough, and real enough. Every day I wake up and say to myself, "Lord I will sing to you like never before.....Why? Because I have never hurt like this before. I have never praised you from this place."
Later in the summer our home church comes here, Honduras. I spend the first hour of that airport pick-up crying my eyeballs out and sputtering the story of those last days with Gerardo to my missions pastor. He listens so caringly, himself having lived the death of a child. I tell the horror, the lack of dignity of a death in Honduras, tell about all the eyes watching the 1 1/2 hours try of recitation, tell him what we couldn't do to help, how short I feel we fell. I relive the trauma and I needed to. He pours out the gifts from Texas, the love wrapped up with beautiful bags, cards, and bows. One gift I grab onto and hold to my heart for a few days. It was the Matt Redman CD "10,000 Reasons", the word held in my heart. The word I have sung back to Him on my own without knowing the lyrics, rhthym, author, or melody. How precious to me. I listen to it blasting for days, weeks, now months. And now I declare, He is giving me new hope, new life, new praises. I have never walked this path before, not like this. I have watched it, stood a little beside for a time, but never like this. And in this time, this path, I am learning to sing like never before. I am learning that my hope is not for this life to be bump free. But my hope is in Him, in His Glory, in His Home. The song cries out with tears and sometimes writhing. It cries out with rejoicing and screams out in pain. The sun comes up every day, every darn day. Every day I have a choice to sing it out or hide it. Oh let me choose to belt it out from my top porch. Let it bring in the hurting and give them refuge. Let it tell of His greatness, His goodness, His faithfulness, and Holiness.

Thank you for walking with us. We love you,
Blessings over your homes,
Paula
 


"10,000 Reasons" by Matt Redman

[Chorus]
Bless the Lord, O my soul
O my soul
Worship His holy name
Sing like never before
O my soul
I'll worship Your holy name

The sun comes up, it's a new day dawning
It's time to sing Your song again
Whatever may pass, and whatever lies before me
Let me be singing when the evening comes

[Chorus]
Bless the Lord, O my soul
O my soul
Worship His holy name
Sing like never before
O my soul
I'll worship Your holy name

You're rich in love, and You're slow to anger
Your name is great, and Your heart is kind
For all Your goodness I will keep on singing
Ten thousand reasons for my heart to find

[Chorus]
Bless the Lord, O my soul
O my soul
Worship His holy name
Sing like never before
O my soul
I'll worship Your holy name

And on that day when my strength is failing
The end draws near and my time has come
Still my soul will sing Your praise unending
Ten thousand years and then forevermore

[Chorus x2]
Bless the Lord, O my soul
O my soul
Worship His holy name
Sing like never before
O my soul
I'll worship Your holy name

Jesus, I'll worship Your holy name
Lord, I'll worship Your holy name

Sing like never before
O my soul
I'll worship Your holy name
Jesus, I'll worship Your holy name
I'll worship Your holy name





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