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Entered By: Paula
Entry Date: 2015-08-12 17:34:53
Subject: Joy


 I have done some crying lately, but this morning in the shower I had a joy moment (even though I was terrified that I would fall through to the bottom porch because I could see the boots on the porch through the drain and the spider cracks in the tub-using the kid's shower because in ours right now whatever water you shower with is the water that falls into the downstairs dining room - yes this is a shameless cry for the help of a plumber).  But anyway.....back to joy. 

I have loved seeing my oldest's (Hannah) posts and photos on Instagram and Facebook (yes, she does that one for me) lately.  I hear and see the joy of a dream come true, a desire fulfilled, a passion flamed into fire.  And thinking on that made me praise God for the decisions that He led us to in life.  Decisions that were specific to our lives and the lives of our children, not specific to anyone else or cause for doctrine or a book.  

I remember when we knew that we would have a child even though I had been told I might not be able to conceive.  I remember when we first knew in our hearts that we should homeschool.  I remember the joy of writing out the why and the how of that.  I still have it; the notebook, the pencil, the conviction.  I remember the decision to teach Latin roots, believing that it would make the next languages come easier.  I remember believing that being able to communicate the love of Christ should be priority - not just in word but in deed.  I remember seeing family life and education being built on the foundation of Christ and His great love for us.  Yep, countless times I have lost sight of some of those things and needed to be snapped back.  Countless. 

And this morning in the shower I knew that everything that God has equipped us to do has led to some pretty awesome moments in the lives of Mark and I and our children.  So as my oldest experiences Asia, culture, language, learning, beauty, relationships, and restrictions I know that God has made her and equipped her for these moments.  As my son looks forward to hard college classes that blow my mind, looks forward to teaching kids at church, and will never ever believe that he needs a new pair of pants,  I know that God has made and equipped him for these moments.  As my next daughter prepares her supplies for her first day of college classes I know that God has made and equipped her for these moments.  

Over all He is faithful.  He has a plan.  He has purpose.  He is eternal.  In those truths I can rest, smile, and experience undescribable joy.  I am so thankful for my children and the things and decisions that God has called us to.  It is with great joy that I look forward to our soon coming school year, knowing that not a moment of my time is wasted or for naught.  



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